This blog is no longer a true reflection of its author at this moment in time, if indeed it ever was. blogs4God files this blog under ministries -- I suppose because of my ministry affiliations. But I'm not feeling all that ministryish these days. Lately, I've been feeling more flogged around by the world than ever. I had to skip church last night to accommodate a TV news crew that decided to visit campus on a spur of the moment. That's par for the course here lately -- dealing with media whims. For the past two-plus weeks, my life has been reactive, responsive, out of control. Not that I've ever had control of my life or my fate, but I like to live under the allusion of being in control. So now I'm feeling caught in a spiral of anomie, adriftness, a bit of postmodern existential angst. I have no time to focus -- not even enough time to post a decent blog entry. And I hate it that I had to miss church last night because of my job. I hate it that I wasn't with my kids (i.e., the teens at church). I hate it that I've been spending too much time on the job and not enough time with the people who matter -- my wife, my church friends, myself. I sorely need some anchor to God right now. I'm not feeling ministryish at all. Maybe that's a good thing.